我一直都知道我是孤独的，永远都只有自己的陪伴。每每在热闹的人海中就会感到特别孤单。因周围每一个是我所熟悉的身影。夜深人静时特别怀念高中时期的自己，周围都围绕着关心我的人。现在我是孤独的在异乡，独自面对所有的挑战和困难。我不奢望任何人的怜悯。因着只会让我更加的脆弱，我不想依靠任何人。因我害怕到最后又回到孤独一人的时候我会更加不能面对，变得更加痛苦。

Quite a long time tat i 'm not blogging.... really busy after going for my futher study at penang.. Hope tat start in 2011 my blog can be updated my recently. By de way Happy Belated New Year and Happy CNY. ^^

Finally my second year first semester theory test have finally finished today... only left next wednesday practical... hope tat this semester can end soon as i'm so looking forward to be back home during semester break. so miss my family and frens.

Why when come to holidays the time passes really really fast? Haiz only 'sekelip mata' my mid term holidays have come to an end... tomorrow i have to leave my dearest hometown and back to penang to continue my study. Haiz... i really really don wan back yet but i know in reality tat's impossible. this time back it need take for about three months for me to be back to my hometown again... 无奈ing... But can't help being human on earth need to accept the path tat have been prepared by good... By de way good luck for me and all of my fren for another term...

Ahhhh...... Wat i gonna do? There will be a formative exam at 1st and 2nd september... But but but i not yet start any revision... What i gonna do? Hopefully i can start my revision this weekend... If not i gonna fail my formative. Haiz this semester really tired. After back from class, really have no mood to study coz too tired already. Mental and physical tired. I think i need to plan for my revision if i really wan to pass this formative with flying colour.

我不知应该是喜还是悲？因我多年的知己离开了，飘洋过海到遥远的国度——美国。这只一个可能我一辈子都不会道德国家把...喜的是，她能到那遥远的国度深造，那国度是我从来都不敢奢望的。悲的是，我们可能好几年都不会再见面了。现在我已经开始想念她了，真的很想她。希望她在那里能过得比从前更好更充实。我深深的祝福和祈祷着...

This sem is really really super duper extreme busy... No time to eat or sleep... Everyday have bunch of things to do.... From seven to six... U see almost 12 hours alr... Haiz i wish my second year will finish very soon. This sem so busy is because i need to deal with real patients plus all of them are primary schoolers, only a few is secondary and even got preschoolers. -_-lll Dealing with them is really will my my mental change into destructive mode. Besides, after treating patient I need to wash all de equipments tat i use then pouch them after that steril in the autoklaf( a machine like oven-to kill bacteria). Afterward i need to disinfect the dental unit (de chair for patient to lie down). Haiz u imagine if one day got four patients u need to repeat these steps for four times... This is really torturing. By the way... patient come at nine o clock( actually everytimes is quater past nine) in the morning... and u need to arrive at lecture hall before eleven.. sometimes, i think is everytimes i don have time to eat. After treating patient i need to wash bunch of things and this take times.. Haiz... But luckily only left one month and the mid sem break going to start... and i will be back to sarawak... Yeah.... can't wait to be back...